Little Girl, Grown up Emotion

She's seen too much, felt too much hurt, pain, emotion for a tiny girl of only 5 years.
Her mother sits in difiance, won't listen to truth, only to the lies the devil fills her head with.
They all are so tired. So tired of being held hostage by this mother's choices. The very ones that love
her the most, and have sacrificed everything for her, are the very ones she is turning her back on.
Even her little daughter can see this so plainly. Only 5 years old, but her wisdom is way beyond her years.
Her mama sits like a stone, won't listen to reason. Her little girl puts her little hand on her mama's face.
She turns her mama's face towards her grandma, and says,"Mama, listen to her, she is telling the truth."
Yet, her mama turns her head back, staring off into space, like a stone. The little girl starts to cry.
"Why won't Mama talk? Why won't she listen to God and not the devil?" "Why doesn't she love us?"

Several months ago, her mother disappeared, and was gone for 4 days and no one knew where she was. The little girl was told by her grandma not to worry, because God knew where her mama was and He would take care of her and bring her home. One evening the door opened, her mother walked in, barefoot, dirty, exhausted and hungry. The little girl watched as her mother sat down on the couch. She smiled hesitantly, because her mommy was home, but yet, one could sense her restraint to show her joy. Still, something wasn't right and she knew it. A few moments later the police were notified that the mother had come home, and moments later the ambulance showed up with 2 emergency technicians along with 3 police officers. The little girl watched while they checked her mama's swollen, sore feet, checked her vital signs and the police asked questions. Her mama tried to answer the questions as best as she could. Some things she just couldn't remember. The grandma was seated next to the little girl, who sat quietly staring at her mama next to her. Afterall, this little girl's mama was the grandma's little girl too. Then suddenly but quietly, the little girl gets up and walks a few feet to the stairway and climbs up about 5 steps, then burst into tears. The grandma immediately leaves the side of her daughter and goes to her granddaughter. She tells her grandbaby to come to her and she places the little girl on her lap and they sit back down on the couch next to the little girl's mama, the grandma's baby.  The grandma asked her grandchild, "What's wrong Honey?" The little girl, through hard sobs and gasp of breaths says, pointing to her mama, " I just don't want her to EVER run away again." Then she places both of her small hands over her face and sobs. Her shoulders are heaving and her tears are flowing. She just doesn't understand. The grandma looks up at the ambulance people and the police and everyone is crying. Everyone, except the little girl's mama. The little girl crawls up in her grandma's lap and places her arms around her neck tightly and sobs. The little girl was right, her mama did run away again, and again and is still running.

Months have past. The little girl is having to grow up fast, to take care of herself, to pick out her own clothes, to brush her own long, tangled golden curls. She worries about things that a little girl shouldn't
have to worry about. "I can do it myself."  "I CAN do it myself." She's holding so much pain and anger deep inside. Somehow she thinks she is taking care of her daddy and siblings too.

Her grandma is fixing her hair as she gets ready to go to school. The little girl says,"My mommy doesn't love me anymore." The grandma says, "of course she does Honey, she just isn't thinking right, right now. She loves you a whole bunch." The little girl responds with absolute "knowing" in her voice, "No she doesn't. She doesn't love anybody, she only loves the devil." The grandma's heart stopped for a moment and she fought back tears before she answered, "Your mama know's God's voice, she just has to learn to hear it again. She will. She does love you very much." The little girl shakes her head no, then says to her grandma,
"You can't move far away, please don't go. Who will fix my hair and make me brush my teeth? Who will help me clean my room? Please don't move far away, then I will have to get someone new to love me." The grandma assures her, through tears, that she will always love her very much and her mama loves her too and everything will be alright. Then the grandma goes into the bathroom and cries.

Somehow, this little girl thinks she has to be strong. She wants to have fun, to laugh, to play, but every day she is force to deal with her life without her mama. Every day her grandma cries for the torn up lives, the empty lives, the hurt lives,yet, she clings to her God and His promises He has given her, that says, "As for me and my house, we WILL serve the Lord."

The grandma sits quietly at her breakfast table. The knot in her stomach doesn't allow her eat her morning meal. Suddenly she feels like a little girl, herself. Her heart is breaking. Then she remembers a song she sang just days before to her granddaughter, that she has sang countless times before,.....a song her mama sang to her when she was a little girl full of grown up emotion.
     My mommy told me something that a little girl should know, it's all about the devil and I learned
     to hate him so. She says he causes troubles if you let him in your room and he'll never ever leave
     you if your heart is filled with gloom......So let the Son shine in, face it with a grin, smilers never
     lose, and frowners never win, so let the Son shine in, face it with a grin. Open up your heart and
     let the Son shine in. .......If I forget to say my prayers the devil jumps with glee, and he feels so
     awful awful when he sees me on my knees, so don't forget to say your prayers and always wear
     a grin, and open up your heart and let the Son shine in......

The grandma told her little granddaughter that God's promises are always true and He always keeps His Word, we just have to believe in those promises.